What the heck is wrong with me?

I'm a 15 year old girl and I don't know what is wrong with me... I've had crushes on three boys in my lifespan, one in kindergarten, one in sixth grade, and one last year on a boy who moved away, but recently I've been realizing that I'm enjoying some really sick thoughts... I've only recently come to realize this, but ever since I was little, I have had daydreams about my favorite characters from shows or movies I've watched, who all happen to be female, either being humiliated, hurt, or crying... and I enjoy it. I'm not proud of this. I've never felt this way about any male characters, or people in real life, and some of the characters I dream about are portrayed by REAL PEOPLE (not just cartoons) and I don't care about the actress portraying, I only care about the character in my daydreams... I really want to know what the heck is wrong with me, I'm creeping myself out by this. For example when Harry Potter %26amp; the Deathly Hallows part 1 came out, after seeing it I became obsessed with all things Harry Potter and particularly Hermione. I daydreamed over and over about the torture scene, and I played scenes in my head of what happened afterward when Hermione was safe but, um, crying. And then more recently I've been watching a series called Pretty Little Liars, which my favorite character is Hanna, and I would always play in my head scenes where Hanna is in the hospital from getting hit by a car and breaking down, and being sad... and I don't know why I enjoy all of this so much... as I've gotten older I've had these thoughts about Gadget(a female mouse) from Rescue Rangers getting humiliated, Misty from Pokemon getting humiliated, Alex from Totally Spies getting humiliated, hurt, or sad, Hermione getting hurt or sad from Harry Potter, and finally Hanna from Pretty Little Liars getting hurt or sad. If you know what's wrong with me please help!!!What the heck is wrong with me?
To me, it seems like you empathize too much with the heroines of all of these books/shows. You connect too deeply with their pain/problems. The reason you may be seeing these terrible situations is that you can't stop worrying about these women.



As for your crush situation, two things: first, having your heart broken may have helped you to develop your empathy for these heroines. And two, most importantly, DO NOT worry about losing these guys, (especially the one from kindergarten, which almost doesn't count). There will be others.



Hope I've helped.What the heck is wrong with me?
You have started your periods...What the heck is wrong with me?
you are an obsessive little girl who needs to grow up a bit