About a month ago I made a HUGE mistake.
I got out of a long term relationship and I was hurt. A week after the breakup I met this guy, Jason we hung out and went to his friends party I ended up drinking a bit at the party but the alcohol hit me harder than usual That night I ended up sleeping at his place and lost my virginity that i've been saving for THE one for 19 years. He didn't even know i was a virgin until he had trouble fitting it in. When I told him he stopped said "WOW, I NEVER knew that" and stopped and layed on my chest. He then a few minutes later said "that's so hot" and continued. After he found out i was a virgin he seemed VERY uncomfortable and not as sure as himself as before. When his thing would slip out he'd like try putting it back in but wouldn't even be close to the whole. He'd then have this like nervous laugh. He then stopped because he was "tired" and then took me in his arms intervined our legs and held onto me and cuddled. He then even seemed very uncomfortable after he got up being naked and all and having an erection.
The funny thing is he was even more sweet after I had sex with him than before. Before we had sex with his friends he'd refer to me as "that girl" but after he'd say "lynn" After we had sex we watched movies until 5 in the morning cuddling with blankets. We kept telling me to come closer and kept wanting to cuddle When we went to bed he also was still super sweet and very thoughtful asking me if i was cold, wanted another pillow etc. The next morning he was even sweeter and took me out for breakfast. We then watched some more movies cuddled. He just seemed to want to impress me. Like just say id be like "i want to be a teacher, because i love kids" he'd be like "i love kids to, id be a good dad, i want 2 kids, im so good with kids".
When my mom picked me up the next day he even wanted to meet her and seemed nervous. He made me say my goodbye at the door to him because he didnt want to do that infront of my mom. He even asked for my home # and called me 2 days later. We talked for like an hour but I said alot of things i regret. When he asked me what my mom thought of him I said she said nothing bad about him. He then asked me if I told my mom what happened with us and I told him I did and she cried a bit and i almost did to. He responded with "holy sh it" I also told him that i think 6 months is to early for sex and that i was always scared of loosing my virginity because i didnt want to be disrespected or used. I also told him that it was TOTALLY out of my character to do what i did with him. I also told him that "i cant believe i did something so stupid, well not stupid because that sounds harsh but like not myself"
He never called me back and when i seen him at school i said "hey" and he said "wussuppp" and i gave him a dirty look and looked away. The next time i saw him he just looked down and kept his head down and acted like he didnt see me and headed to his bus. Then when his back was to me i saw him from the corner of my eye peek over his shoulder and look at me. The other time he spotted me out without thinking i noticed him he walked in the opposite direction. Hes 21 btw
What do you think of this?
Thanks!I lost my virginity on a one night stand? Why would he be so sweet and then randomly stop calling?Sounds like all the regretful things said to each other took their toll on the budding relationship. I don't believe he ever wanted anything more than just casual sex, but your emotions started hooking him (desire for reciprocation plus sense of duty - possible feelings of guilt).
He probably realized you are not his Miss Right once he was able to think through his feelings of guilt and the sense of duty they invoked. But it's still hard to let a person know that.I lost my virginity on a one night stand? Why would he be so sweet and then randomly stop calling?school?..bus? ..mom picking up?...you both definitely are below 18! stop lieing girl. your would get alot of better answers if u didnt lie. as for what i can say theres nothing i can help u with. u should kee your legs closed, child
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